The 48 Laws of Power

I'm reading this book slowly. From reading the basic intro of the laws, the preface and the first law, I realize that I do a lot of what is suggested in here already without trying.

First law: " Never Outshine The Master"- basically always make the "master" feel needed, wanted and brilliant. I understand this but at the same time if they are idiots how can you make them look better? How can you make them appear brilliant when every word that comes out of their mouths is banal (new word for me) and ignorant beyond measure? How do you find the balance of making them appear greater and still hold on to reality? I realize that sometimes you have to make someone look better to avoid their embarassment. Sometimes it involves saving them from themselves knowing you will receive nothing in return, and in the worst case be spurned for doing so regardless if it saved them and their position.

" Avoid outshining the master. All superiority is odious, but the superiority of a subject over his prince is not only stupid, it is fatal. This is a lesson that the stars in the sky teach us- they may be related to the sun, and just as brilliant, but they never appear in her company" Baltasar Gracian

It goes on to say if the "master" is a falling star aid in the fall but be discreet. " "Outdo, outcharm, outsmart him at key moments." " Do not be merciful." But if the "master" is feeble do not outshine him them it will appear cruel. So choose your victim wisely.

Things that make you go "hmmmmmmmm"...


Food for thought:

When Minister Joe Wright was asked to open the new session of the Kansas Senate, everyone was expecting the usual generalities, but this is what they heard:

"Heavenly Father, we come before you today to ask your forgiveness and to seek your direction and guidance. We know Your Word says, 'Woe to those who call evil good,' but that is exactly what we have done. We have lost our spiritual equilibrium and reversed our values. We confess that we have ridiculed the absolute truth of Your Word and call it Pluralism. We have exploited the poor and called it the lottery. We have rewarded laziness and called it welfare. We have killed our unborn and called it choice. We have shot abortionists and called it justifiable. We have neglected to discipline our children and called it building self esteem. We have abused power and called it politics. We have coveted our neighbor's possessions and called it ambition. We have polluted the air with profanity and pornography and called it freedom of ___expression. We have ridiculed the time-honored values of our forefathers and called it enlightenment. Search us, Oh, God, and know our hearts today; cleanse us from every sin and set us free. Amen!"

What A day

I had to reschedule my surgery. BOOOOO.... Oh well I've waitied this long to get it taken care of.
So now I'll be here to ensure that my work gets done correctly.

Today has started out much like every other day. Boring. Ran my mouth on the phone to utilize the dragging hours of the day. Did real work for a change.

I bought two books today... "The 48 Laws of Power" by Robert Greene and " Angry Black White Boy" by Adam Mansbach. Greene's book is book I've heard about and decided to read. It teaches you how to be powerful and defend against the powerful. 430pgs should take me a good minute. The other is about a white boy who is possesed by black culture and takes on some of the fights. This should be interesting. Expanding my mind and my views...This too will be interesting.

Question? Are some kids just bad? Or do they repeat what they see and hear @ home? My belief is they repeat what they see and hear. People in my opinion have their personality traits from birth. It takes years and circumstances to bring them out. If you never allow a child to be their true selves they will rebel at some point. If this rebellion isnt met with loving hearts andundertanding they will go to the extreme and end up becoming degenerates. Children's behavior must be curved by their caregivers. Children who are allowed to do as they please will have issue when rules are given and expect to be followed. A caregiver (parent, aunt, uncle, babysitter, teacher etc.) must not allow the child to do harmful things and go unpunished. Punishments should not always be devastating to the child, a harsh word sometimes hurts worse than a spanking. I got spanked (beat, you choose the word) a lot as a child, and I know that I remember what they said more than the pain of the spanking itself. I wish babies would stop having babies that decrease the amount of degenerates out there. A child cannot raise a child. A 35 yr old grandmother isnt cute! That's crazy to me indeed.

I know for me and mine, wont be no craziness!!! excuse my ebonics...lol....


Um anyway... the day is almost over and I'm happy about that... Ready to unwind in a good book....

Rest Came....

I wore myself out yesterday in order to chase the sleep I've missed, and I finally got some sleep. First I took a nap for about three hrs. The I woke up to eat, blood sugar was low. Then played ESPN's NFL 2K5 for a few minutes, and won!!! Then I put the tv on and dozed. I woke up to my alarm, which is the loudest most annoying sound to wake up to. But it works. I feel good, sleepy still. But cool none the less.

The interview was wack. I was a latteral move. No good. Need something better than that.

It's funny how people tell you they miss you. They may not be forth-rite but they say it in a way you understand. A simple email, a response to an email, a kind gesture, a prayer sent up on your behalf, a smile when they see you. I miss my brothers and tell them every chance I get in my own special way. I miss Ms. Tracey and I send a prayer up when I get a chance. That's somebody that is so dear to me, I'll probably cry when I see her.

Did biz work yesterday, sent out 6 packets, cross ur fingers....

In a fog...

I haven't slept since like Saturday afternoon. In the past htree days I've had a total of about 6 hrs of sleep. 6 hrs. chopped into about 30-40 min increments. This sucks. I'm sleepy. I went to gym and got my work out on, (lol), in hopes it would tire me out enough to sleep. I biked 3.6 miles in 10 min. I'm a beast! Ok reality check... It felt good, heart rate stayed above 180 the whole time. Lifted a little bit and did a stretch and cool down and went home. But it didn't work. So listened to some gospel music. Have to admit it woke me up more. I heard some of my recent fav's. I cooked, I cleaned, but still no rest. So I'm tired as all this morning.

Then when I got here I find out the reports that were to be done yesterday in my absence were screwed up royally and it took five people to figure it out. Funny thing is it took five people trying to figure it out when had they looked at the instructions I left it was spelled out step by step with little room for error! But they figured it out after about an hour. Now I have to rewrite and print out sample reports for all my other reports because I'll be out for 3-4 days for surgery. This is retarded!

I found/figured out this weekend that I will never understand relationships. Friendship and romantic alike. I know how to be a friend, I know how to be a girlfriend. But when it comes time to be both, neither of us knows how to find the balance out. I've seen and been a victim of relationship where you focus so much on being in a relationship you forget how to just be friends, forget how to listen and be there. This creeps up in all relationships the challenge is to nip it in the bud before it gets to be an issue. I've had an emotional weekend. As you can see.

Marriage is a weird topic to speak about to married people. I've had convo's with my married friends and they just say stuff like " you just know", or "you just understand".... What does that mean? I say I'm ready to settle down. Have been for a while. But never found Mister Right. Now that I think I found him, they say stuff like "good luck"... WHAT!? I need a crash course in what to expect, I need to know how to act and react, they are no help. BUMS!!! I need help, not more headache!!! Breathe..... Relax Relate Release.....Numyo... Woosah....

I just put together press packets,7 of them to send out. Wish us luck on this.....

Someday....

Someday I'll get what I want, how I want it. I say no tomatoes, I'll get no tomatoes, I say full service I'll get full service. The satisfaction of getting what you want how u want it is great. I am a different kinda lady, I zig as much as I zag, and I like it that way. I'm not conventional in any way shape and/or form. Cant be.... I'm a revolutionary....lol...

No but really I do want to revolutionize how people listen to music to where it isnt all about a tight beat. I want to change the way people read, the erotic nature of Zane's (and others like her) is killing the brain cells of our youth. I see them as I'm riding the train, completely engulfed in these books, its weird to me that that stuff sells as well as it does when you cant invest any real emotion into something and it doesnt make you a better person for reading it. I want to change the movies we watch too. We have converted to Blaxploitation again... i.e "King's Ransom" I mean really?! Why cant we have love stories that stay with us, why cant we have family building movies that sustains our beliefs? Why the hell arent there more actors that can play our roles? Im tired of seeing Sanaa, Taye, Mahki, Omar, Gabrielle, Morris, Boris, and all the others that have been in every "black" movie in the last 8yrs!!!!
Does anybody hear me out there?!

I'm at my desk at work again with nothing to do... Got called for an interview for next week basically doing the same thing I'm doing now but the pay is better, and its closer to home.
We'll see on Tuesday.

I'm here at work, bored as usual, and my boss is frustrating me to no end which is the friggin norm with her. She causes my blood pressure to rise and she is as plastic as Barbie, probably more so if I really think about it. I have out grown my position here. And upon her first whiff that I was no longer content I got my annual 2% raise..... Please! I promptly typed the number up and taped it to my computer for all to see how much I was really worth. Then my counterpart (she supposedly does what I do, but I have never seen any evidence to support this) complained because she has been here for 7 yrs. and 2% wasnt going to cut it. So HR got involved and gave us both a raise. Was I happy? I guess... the money didnt really impact my check that much. It just made it so I had money left after rent was due. But I got a little surprise in the mail, my retoactive pay... That was a great surprise. The money is almost gone, long story on that. Let's just call it someone else's lack of prior planning.... Now I'm sitting on a "lil change" it should help me get out of my current living situation soon... I sit here thinking and now I have aplace to write it down... yeah Blog....

Purging

"...IN PARADISE, WHEN THOU WERT BORN IN THE FIRST ROSE, BENEATH THE TREE OF KNOWLEDGE, THOU RECEIVEDST A KISS, AND THY RIGHT NAME WAS GIVEN THEE-- THY NAME, POETRY."

That's right I'm a poet, spoken word artist, wordsmith and whatever else you choose to call me...




When people hear the word purge they think of getting rid of something... Well thats what this space is for getting rid of the old me, my old ways, and re-learning what it means to be me completely. I still find myself scared to write in my journal, scared to be completely honest for fear of coming to reality door and never finding the courage to knock. And crying because I chose not to. I'm sick of being sick, tired of being too tired to care. So I took a stand four years ago and decided to me, the me no one knew I was. I wrote a whole story of me prior and let everyone read it, and now they dont understand that it was fiction. Now I'm writing biographies of me so now they cant deny the real me. They may run and hide, decide they dont like me, give me the finger... IONT CARE!!!!! I'll still be me today, tomorrow and forever.

"...I dont get many compliments, but i am confident used to have a complex about being too complex" NOT ANYMORE....