Sorry i haven't written... its just my hand specialist took three needles to my wrist yesterday and i alomost cried... a tear sat right on the cusp of my eyelid, but it didnt fall... my hand is sore as hell and i missed going to the gym...

I'm in a good place right now. I'm at ease with myself and everyone else. Feeling good right now. I want to go on a trip somewhere, where i dont know yet. might hop a plane somewhere for a weekend. maybe alone, maybe with friends, or whom ever. Just have a jones for an adventure...

I'm ready to go back to school now too, found a program that works for me...get a degree so my mom will stop naggin me...

Selah... believe in something...

Selah, Lauryn Hill



Nothing can be done against the truth
No matter how we remain in denial
Wasting timeReplacing time
With each empty excuse
But that'll only work a little while
Coping with despair
Knowing you're not there
Ashamed to just admitI've been a fool
So I blame it on the Son
Run away from everyone
Hoping to escape this ridicule
Trapped in misery
Wrapped so miserably
And this deception I wear it like a skin


Dying to mantain
Oh I keep trying to explain
A heart that never loved me to begin
Oh I'm such a mess
I have no choice but to confess
That I've been desperately trying to belong
Lying to myself
And everybody else
Refusing to admit my right was wrong

And then He came
Selah
And it means
Praise and meditation
And then He came
Selah
And it means
Did you think about that?
And then He came
Selah
Oh and it means
Praise and meditation
And then He came
Selah
Oh and it means
That it is seen


How beautiful is fruit still in denial of its roots?
My guilty heart behaves so foolishly
This treason from within
That reasons with my sin
Won't be happy til it sees the death of me
Selfishly addictedTo a life that I depicted
Conflicted cuz it's not reality
Oh what's left of meI beg you desperately
Cause me to agree with what I know is best for me
Please save me from myselfI need
You to save me from myself
Please save me from myself so I can heal


The choices I have made
Oh have been nothing but mistakes
What a wasted use of space
Should I die before I wake?
In all of my religionI've fortified this prison
Obligated to obey
The demands of bad decisions

Please save me from myselfI need
You to save me from myself
Please save me from myself so I can heal


And then He came
Selah
And it meansPraise and meditation
And then He came
Selah
And it means
Did you think about that?
And then He came
Selah
Oh and it means
Meditation
And then He came
Selah
Oh and it means
That it is seen


And then He came
And then He came
Then He came, then He came, then He cameAnd then He came

With Love Always....

Of all the words of tongue or pen, the saddest are those...it might have been.


If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you, but I did, I do and I will.

A guy and a girl can be just friends but at one point or another one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late or maybe, just maybe…

I want to remeber you as the guy who showed up at my desk in May, a guy I grew to love. I man I shared my highs and lows with, a man that knew me. One that made me smile, was cool with my goofyness... I want to remember my Mister as he was.

Please don't take that away from me. Please don't make me want to forget. I want to remember you always... tell my grandkids about a man that showed up at my desk, and that I loved him deeply... I want us to understand what happened, I want to be an ear, I want to be your friend above all. Just let me be that above all...


If they only claimed love, claimed love, claimed love
They maintened love
Instead they drained love, stained love
They didn’t control love, my soul loves a whole love, like this before
Received the same love
If they didn’t regret love, forget love, say they never met love
If they will love, don’t kill love, just be still love ....

i'm feeling weird today... i'm learning that the greiving/loss process is different for every one... some people channel their energies toward improving themselves and becoming better individuals. they take the experience for what it was, and move past the badtimes and look at the good times only... thats my preferred route...

some people analyze, over analyze and destroy the memory of what they've lost. throw blame and never acknowledge the role they played in the loss.

well im on the receiving end of the latter... what can do... feelings are valid on both sides but i'm still getting blamed and accused of so much. my effort s being called into question... and i'm trying to let it just cool, and give those comments their validity. i have but doesnt mean i dont want to defend myself. that damn fatal flaw... but i think i'm handling it well.... or trying to at least....

Whoa, good job reality TV

Texas Woman Sues 'Extreme Makeover'Sep 21, 9:50 AM EST
The Associated Press
LOS ANGELES -- A woman is suing ABC's reality show "Extreme Makeover" for unspecified damages, alleging its decision to cancel her appearance contributed to her sister's suicide.

In a lawsuit filed Sept. 9 in Los Angeles Superior Court, Deleese Williams, 30, of Conroe, Texas, claimed the producers subjected her to needless humiliation and goaded her sister, Kellie McGee, into insulting her appearance.

Williams says a psychologist and numerous doctors told her she needed an "eye lift, ears pulled back, chin implant and breast implants."

She was also told she needed dental surgery to break and reset her jaw for a successful "makeover," the lawsuit said.

Just hours before the dental surgery was to take place, Williams was told she was being dropped from the show because the recovery time wouldn't fit into the schedule, the lawsuit said.
Williams said she returned to Texas devastated.

Four months later, her sister killed herself.

"She knew that they could drop her at anytime, but she didn't believe they would," Williams' Houston-based lawyer, Wesley Cordova, said Tuesday.

The lawsuit said McGee suffered from bipolar disorder, but Cordova said the show drove Williams' sister to kill herself.

Williams is suing ABC and its parent company, The Walt Disney Co., for alleged breach of contract, willful infliction of emotional distress and negligence.

"The most tragic part is that Deleese is now too ashamed to even go out in public," Cordova said.
ABC said Tuesday that all participants know in advance that their makeover may not happen.

"The ABC Television Network wishes to express its sincere condolences to Deleese Williams and her family for the loss of Kellie McGee," the company said in a statement.

"In regards to `Extreme Makeover,' all participants are made aware that if doctors or producers have any concerns about a procedure, the makeover will not go forward. ... The producers endeavor to handle each potential makeover participant with the utmost care."

Williams said she applied to "Extreme Makeover" in December 2003 and was selected to meet with producers in Los Angeles.

There, Williams was videotaped recounting the ridicule she suffered as a child and her years in an abusive marriage to an ex-husband. Her lawsuit alleges that her husband and sisters were also interviewed and encouraged to make disparaging comments about her looks.

Last month, five orphaned siblings who appeared on "Extreme Makeover: Home Edition" also sued ABC, accusing the network of fraud and breach of contract. The siblings said the family that took them in after their parents died later drove them out of the nine-bedroom mansion that was built for them. ABC and the family have declined to comment on that lawsuit.
Copyright 2005 Associated Press. All rights reserved. This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten, or redistributed.

Stages...

5 stages of grief/loss


Denial (this isn't happening to me!)
Anger (why is this happening to me?)
Bargaining (I promise I'll be a better person if...)
Depression (I don't care anymore)
Acceptance (I'm ready for whatever comes)

OR


Numbness (mechanical functioning and social insulation)
Disorganization (intensely painful feelings of loss)
Reorganization (re-entry into a more 'normal' social life.)



THIS SUCKS

A Prayer...

The person who sent this to me via email, may have been just forwarding it, but i think it reached me for a reason...



Dear Lord, I thank you for this day. I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning. I'm blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding God. You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you. I ask now for Your forgiveness.
Please keep me safe from all danger and harm. Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude. Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.
Please broaden my mind that I may accept things that come from you.
Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over. Let me continue to see sin through God's eyes and acknowledge it as evil. And if I should sin, let me repent, and confess with my mouth my wrongdoing, and receive the forgiveness of God.
And when this world closes in on me, let me remember Jesus' example -- to slip away and find a quiet place to pray. It's the best response when I'm pushed beyond my limits. I know that when I can't pray, You listen to my heart. Continue to use me to do Your will.
Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak. Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others. I pray for those who are lost and can't find their way. I pray for
those who are misjudged and misunderstood. I pray for those who don't know You intimately. I pray for those who will delete this without sharing it with others. I pray for those who don't believe. But I thank you that I believe.
I believe that God changes people and God changes things. I pray for all my sisters and brothers. For each and every family member in their households. I pray for peace, love and joy in their homes that they are out of debt and all their needs are met.
I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than God. Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees them and every mouth that confesses them willingly..
This is my prayer.
In Jesus' Name, Amen.

It should be Ms. but Lauryn said Mr., but point taken

See the road to hell is paved with good intentions
Can't you tell the way they have to mention
How they've helped you out; you're such a hopeless victim
Please don't do me any favors, Mr. Intentional
All their talk is seasoned to perfection
The road they walk, commanding your affection
They need to be needed, deceived by motivation
An opportunity, to further situation
Why they so important, is without explanation

We give rise to ego by being insecure
The advice that we go desperatly searching for
The subconscious effort to support our paramour
To engage in denial, to admit we're immature
Validating lies, Mr. Intentional
Open up yours eyes, Mr. Intentional
Stuck in a system that seeks to suck your blood
Held emotionally hostage by what everybody does
Counting all the money that you give them just because
Exploiting ignorance in the name of love
Stop before you drop because that's just the way it works
Please don't justify me, Mr. Intentional

Wake up you've been sleeping
Take up your bed and walk
Stop blaming other people
Oh it's nobody else's fault
Accept the truth about you
You know that life goes on without you
And your expensive misinventions
Disguising your intentions
Don't worship my hurt feelings, Mr. Intentional

See I know you can't help me, Mr. Intentional
The only help I need to live, is unprofessional
The only wealth I have to give, is not material
And if you need much more than that, I'm not available
Please don't entertain me, Mr. Intentional
Oh I dont need your sympthy, Mr. Intentional
Stay away from me, Mr. Intentional
So one dimensional, Mr. Promotional, Mr. Emotional, Mr. Intentional....

im a writer in conflict...

i havent been writing much. my real life has made that almost impossible. I haven't dreaming much either. I should write about whats been happening in my life over the last couple of months. It would make a great book, or movie, or play. It could be a best seller. but to protect the innocent I would have to change names and locations. but would that be a betrayal? would my writing in an almost autobiographical sense offend anyone? or would the people i write about appreciate my honesty andreally uinderstand what they have done. or would they become onery and surley just to not have to admit they were wrong? I think I shouldnt think so hard about this. but its hard. when you've been wronged, its hard to let go. and my fatal flaw is defending myself at all costs. to which i pledged to myself to change. forgiveness for this person isnt on the horizon, but maybe one day i will be able to look back on it and understand... who knows maybe i will write this done, while its fresh. keep it for myself, and when i die it be released as memoirs and then the world will see why i am the way i am and the things that shaped me....

Maybe

maybe im addicted to the freshness
the newness of love
addicted to the very sight, the feeling of new love
maybe i need the high of a new love
anticipating phones calls
cleaning my spot for a pop visit that may not occur
getting cute cause i might check you after work
maybe i need that butterfly feeling constantly
maybe i cant get comfortable in love
maybe my palms have to be sweaty for me to breathe easy
maybe i need to tingle everytime we touch
could be that i need the initial love feeling, not the long term
maybe i have to have a need to impress him to be on my p's and q's
cant get comfortable enough to relax
might be that i'm a serial monogamist
love and love til i cant
and end it then
monogamy is a beautiful thing
living and loving the one your with
but when the love is gone
want them and their shit out of your spot
maybe i cant love more than what i've been
maybe i aint the marrying type
could be that i aint healed
wounds still fresh still open
or just infected
Doesnt mean I'm not hurt, or unscathed...
with every battle scar comes a new truth that manifests in my life...
and I have no one to blame for the scars,
they mean I've been somewhere,
fought some battle and lived to tell the story.
Time heals all wounds they say... I have to agree.Waiting for my healing...
feel like love dont love me no more
but my ex's do
i can function in love
cause i forget to love me first
when i love me
love my reflection
love my imperfections
love my flaws
maybe me and love can rekindle the flame
fall in love again
and make us some love kids
just maybe

lmao

I asked God to give me a sign, should I stay or should I go. they say be careful what you ask for and i finally realize what they meant.

I got my sign LOUD and CLEAR!!! I'm so gone, sucks cause there was an inkling of hope, now its gone with the wind, hope floated, and I have to follow the sign and be on my way. No love lost, just diverted, and channeled diferently.

God works in mysterious ways, they say. I say if you pay attention, there should be no mystery!

WOW!!! (but not in a good way)

I'm jaded... about my emotions, about life, about luv, about everything at this point....


The PHOENIX will rise again, thats what I do best...


Doesnt mean I'm not hurt, or unscathed... with every battle scar comes a new truth that manifests in my life... and I have no one to blame for the scars, they mean I've been somewhere, fought some battle and lived to tell the story. Time heals all wounds they say... I have to agree.
Waiting for my healing...

Katrina

I want to say this to the President....


Dear Dumbass,

I've watched you come on TV and pretend to care, pretend to be patriotic, pretend to be a man of great wisdom and try you quell the pains of this tragedy. Too bad your first TV appearance took three to four days to occur. Too bad it took you four days to step foot in the region. No, you were too good to step down and get your feet dirty to see what the situation really entailed, oh no for you a fly over or two was all that it required. You have the most power of any human being on earth, and yet you could do nothing for these people for four days. In those four days probably 1000 people died or became gravely ill waiting for you to say when so government entities could react and do something. It's a damn shame you haven't been more involved with the decision making in this crisis, whats more shameful is, you haven't lent a hand to any organizations, and I mean literally a hand, you haven't done a damn thing. You havent lifted a box, a cot, nothing you just say you a proud of those who have.

You are safe and warm and in good health, laid up in the White House while the people who put you in office die daily, wondering why the hell they voted for you in the first place. You are a very ignorant man. More over you are heartless. I didn't vote for you, hell I've never voted and you've proven in this crisis why I chose not to vote. You are the worst man for this job, the absolute worst. You are a punk no less, and truly you are your father's son.

Finding the man and "de-throning" the man who tried to kill your father has been your mission from day one. You came in with that agenda and you stuck to your guns, literally. Did it make you feel good to know you killed almost a million people, in to different countries in the pursuit of that agenda?

You say Bin-Laden is the the only agenda now, why? Bin-Laden has a grieveance with the USA, deal with it politically, try to be diplomatic. The whole "eye-for an-eye" theory, is not only archaic, but just plain stupid. " You can't bring a knife to a gun fight" right? But thanks to you the amount of US servicemen/women that have died will/has surpassed the Vietnam War/Occupation. And that occupation lasted ten years. You are doing a great job. What's a few lives lost to prove a point, right? We have a few billion people in this country, a few hundred-thousand lives lost means nothing.

My brother joined the military as means to gain discipline. Now you may send him to Iraq. He is a non-combat member of the Army. That means nothing because I can guarantee you will make him pick up a gun regardless if he gets sent. If my brother gets hurt, you will have more than you bargained for to deal with. Yes that is a threat, one that can and will be backed up. If you decide to send agents to my house, please tell them it's the door on the side of the building. And tell them to knock twice.

People ask me why I don't consider myself an American. My parents are immigrants, so that means I am part of the first generation born in this country. Too bad beacause I never claim that on anything except when the govenment asks me if was born here. I stopped saying the "Pledge of Alligence" in the third grade. I refuse to stand upon the singing/playing of the National Anthem. I do not support any war, or any taking of lives for political gain, or as punishment of a crime. Only in self defense should a life be taken. I find myself laughing in disbelief at the stupidity you demonstrate on a daily basis. You are a prime example why I will never be a "Proud American" (isn't that and oxy-moron).

The Chief Justice passed away this weekend. Funny how you looked over the two people on the court who have been there through all of your blunders. They too are conservative, they believe in what you believe in. Only thing that kept them out..... skin color. Lie, to me and say that isn't the reason. A black Chief Justice.... An Italian Cheif Justice... Yeah right!

Ok, I'm sick of writing now, you know your intellegence limitations, and no I dont mean the office of intellence, I mean your mental capacity. The people are only as good as its leader, so that means they are bigger idiots than before. So thanks again for you constant mediocraty, your malice, your unchanging unwaivering callousness to all who oppose you and your agenda. You give me more and more reasons to disparage your sagacity daily.

Good Job Dumbass....

Thanks for your attention to these materials, and should you invite me to the White House, I'll decline now. You can meet me in Brooklyn, where you have a lot if disgruntled citizens. I'd bring back-up if you decide to come. And don't wear a suit or come in a fleet of black cars and limo's, you'll just get clipped faster. Try to blend in. LMAO....

New Orleans

Jamiam77 (10:32:15 AM): sup homie
Jamiam77 (10:32:35 AM): i give you peace every once in a while but i dont know how i get in there lol
Jamiam77 (10:33:22 AM): man i got my dsl hooked up yesterdayi got off work last night and stayed up till 3am looking at news footage.. messed me up
Jamiam77 (10:33:27 AM): i couldn't sleep
noapologeze (10:34:28 AM): the news is depressing, but the most profound thing i heard was its crazy how a 21st century city nw looks like a 3rd world country in a matter of days
Jamiam77 (10:34:56 AM): it wasnt really in the best condition to begin with but this shit is crazy
noapologeze (10:35:05 AM): it is
noapologeze (10:35:18 AM): deperation is serious
Jamiam77 (10:35:23 AM): and the president is just going down today
noapologeze (10:35:25 AM): desperation*
Jamiam77 (10:35:27 AM): they closed the astrodome
Jamiam77 (10:36:00 AM): why did this company call us at work last night having us check out the best way to transport 1 thousand people from louisiana to seattle
noapologeze (10:36:03 AM): he's a punk ass, how can u know whats going on, and turn ur back! he flew over the region two days in a row
Jamiam77 (10:36:10 AM): we were on the phone all night trying to find companies available to do it
noapologeze (10:36:29 AM): and he's now setting his foot there! WTF!!!! good job to all those who elected him
Jamiam77 (10:36:38 AM): you hear the youth are raping young girls now
Jamiam77 (10:36:52 AM): you know..i was thinking the same thing
noapologeze (10:36:56 AM): i heard and thats tragic
Jamiam77 (10:37:09 AM): and we don't even have any troops because they are all in another country
Jamiam77 (10:37:13 AM): great
Jamiam77 (10:37:30 AM): how does it work that people need help so you double the gas prices??
Jamiam77 (10:37:40 AM): and the reserves they are sending to lousiana are not free
Jamiam77 (10:37:44 AM): they have to pay that back
noapologeze (10:37:45 AM): people so over come with stress right now they are becoming aggressive and they are letting it out only its not the right meas to do so
Jamiam77 (10:38:02 AM): they aren't telling these people anything
Jamiam77 (10:38:10 AM): no food has come in really
Jamiam77 (10:38:16 AM): they think they are being left there to die
Jamiam77 (10:38:49 AM): there asking the news people for info and they don't have any.. what kinda crap is that
Jamiam77 (10:39:01 AM): if the news people can get in how come food and supplies can't? Jamiam77 (10:39:51 AM): but the city wasn't that structurally sound to begin with did you see pics of the bridges?
Jamiam77 (10:39:59 AM): they overpasses just fell apart
Jamiam77 (10:40:02 AM): that's crazy
noapologeze (10:40:28 AM): they city was built half ass
noapologeze (10:40:57 AM): the area was dangerous from jump but people chose to stay and build and generations later they see what the warnings were about
Jamiam77 (10:41:10 AM): oh and i heard that there is some murmuring in dc.. they knew the city wasn't sound and now they are afraid of lawsuits .. the committe that was supposed to fix that bush took away the funding last year..uhmm
Jamiam77 (10:41:24 AM): but this happened in the 60s too.. the city is a bowl
Jamiam77 (10:41:27 AM): whose idea was that?
noapologeze (10:41:33 AM): yes mame it was on the news last night
noapologeze (10:42:07 AM): bush promised a lot four years ago and nothing was given
Jamiam77 (10:42:14 AM): uhm
Jamiam77 (10:42:16 AM): wow..
Jamiam77 (10:42:22 AM): now i see why he's just showing up
noapologeze (10:42:26 AM): he gets re-elected in hopes he would do something, and still nothing
noapologeze (10:42:44 AM): so people are left destitute
Jamiam77 (10:42:55 AM): great
noapologeze (10:43:10 AM): and he isnt going to do that much
Jamiam77 (10:43:26 AM): no he called his father and clinton to start a fund or something what theeee hell
Jamiam77 (10:43:44 AM): and why was he on another 6 week vacation when this happend???? Jamiam77 (10:43:55 AM): i wonder where michael moore is
noapologeze (10:44:11 AM): i was thinking, if all the people that are millionaires in the USA, actors, musicians, sports stars etc would all donate 1 million dollars, it would make a huge dent
noapologeze (10:44:41 AM): but will they , no
Jamiam77 (10:44:51 AM): master p is starting a fund and heard some other people are too
Jamiam77 (10:45:15 AM): these people stayed to protect their things.. crazy..
Jamiam77 (10:45:42 AM): but we weren't informed about gaston either
noapologeze (10:45:57 AM): they will beg for us middle class and scraping by citizens to send money, when 10 of them can match our donations and not feel the pinch
Jamiam77 (10:46:03 AM): most people were at work when it was really getting started and that was supposed to be just a storm passing over
Jamiam77 (10:46:10 AM): indeed
Jamiam77 (10:46:16 AM): they spend millions on lotion
Jamiam77 (10:46:16 AM): uhmm
noapologeze (10:46:23 AM): on cars
Jamiam77 (10:47:11 AM): my question.. once the water recedes if it ever does.. i wonder who is going to move back there.. and.. what happens to all the college students who JUST paid tuition.....
Jamiam77 (10:47:23 AM): i bet those schools arent' giving refunds
noapologeze (10:47:52 AM): supposedly, they will be able to transfer paid in full to another university
Jamiam77 (10:48:09 AM): wow
Jamiam77 (10:48:47 AM): acation is Over... an open letter from Michael Moore to George W. Bush Friday, September 2nd, 2005 Dear Mr. Bush: Any idea where all our helicopters are? It's Day 5 of Hurricane Katrina and thousands remain stranded in New Orleans and need to be airlifted. Where on earth could you have misplaced all our military choppers? Do you need help finding them? I once lost my car in a Sears parking lot. Man, was that a drag. Also, any idea where all our national guard soldiers are? We could really use them right now for the type of thing they signed up to do like helping with national disasters. How come they weren't there to begin with?
Jamiam77 (10:49:44 AM): Last Thursday I was in south Florida and sat outside while the eye of Hurricane Katrina passed over my head. It was only a Category 1 then but it was pretty nasty. Eleven people died and, as of today, there were still homes without power. That night the weatherman said this storm was on its way to New Orleans. That was Thursday! Did anybody tell you? I know you didn't want to interrupt your vacation and I know how you don't like to get bad news. Plus, you had fundraisers to go to and mothers of dead soldiers to ignore and smear. You sure showed her! I especially like how, the day after the hurricane, instead of flying to Louisiana, you flew to San Diego to party with your business peeps. Don't let people criticize you for this -- after all, the hurricane was over and what the heck could you do, put your finger in the dike? And don't listen to those who, in the coming days, will reveal how you specifically reduced the Army Corps of Engineers' budget for New Orleans this summer for the third year in a row. You just tell them that even if you hadn't cut the money to fix those levees, there weren't going to be any Army engineers to fix them anyway because you had a much more important construction job for them -- BUILDING DEMOCRACY IN IRAQ!
noapologeze (10:50:50 AM): they have resorted to send actual ARMY service men down there, as Marshal Law men, my bro is down there
Jamiam77 (10:51:05 AM): damn
noapologeze (10:51:48 AM): the New Orleans Police have begun to turn in their badges and weapons, because they know they are out manned and out weaponed down there, they said its about survival
Jamiam77 (10:52:07 AM): i heard police just didn't show up for work
Jamiam77 (10:52:14 AM): now their turning in badges wow
noapologeze (10:52:22 AM): yup
noapologeze (10:52:25 AM): sad
Jamiam77 (10:52:43 AM): i never recalled louisiana being in any of those end time prophecies
Jamiam77 (10:54:02 AM): this man is crazy ....No, Mr. Bush, you just stay the course. It's not your fault that 30 percent of New Orleans lives in poverty or that tens of thousands had no transportation to get out of town. C'mon, they're black! I mean, it's not like this happened to Kennebunkport. Can you imagine leaving white people on their roofs for five days? Don't make me laugh! Race has nothing -- NOTHING -- to do with this! You hang in there, Mr. Bush. Just try to find a few of our Army helicopters and send them there. Pretend the people of New Orleans and the Gulf Coast are near Tikrit. Yours, Michael Moore
noapologeze (10:54:10 AM): its a modern day soddom and gomorrah
Jamiam77 (10:58:39 AM): is this woman serious We're appalled," said Jill Johnson, 53, of Saskatoon. "This city is built on tourism and we're their last priority."
Jamiam77 (10:59:03 AM): they took the tour buses sent down for tourist and then kicked them out of the hotels
Jamiam77 (10:59:24 AM): and this guy says.. "I grew up in an upper-middle class family. Street life is foreign to me," said Larry Mitzel, 53, of Saskatoon, Saskatchewan. "I'm not sure I'm going to get out of here alive."

"Easy Like Sunday Morning" Lionel Richie

That damn song has been in my head for days... I found it on some file share stuff I have on my computer, and its been replaying in my head. And "Ease on down the Road" from The Wiz, when Michael was brown. It's nuts.

Well my friend thinks she's preggers! WTF! Oh well I just pray they get straight or they'll fuck up this kid from scatch!

Jamila told me today that she may come back to NY. WOOOOHOOO! That would be great! For me! For biz! For NY! So we'll see how that goes... anything I can do to ease the process ( I mean speed up but that's between me and you)...